i haven't been here in forever...not my fault, though. my laptop is no more. i've started shopping for a new one and tonight will try to salvage what music/writings/pictures i can.

i should be getting ready for work. instead i'm sitting here in my pajamas with wet hair trying to add some pictures to fbook. it isn't working. so i'll probably be late...

also tonight, i may try to steal this laptop again to write a lenthy entry about my trip. or not. i might forget and start playing animal crossing. need to give that back to daniel eventually...let's aim for the lengthy entry.

kinda hungry...i've got some sushi wraps in the cabinet, but i don't feel like making them. bweh...

so, there appears to be a small group of ushers who have nicknamed me the "usher nazi" behind my back. i've been told they've called me hitler a few times too. how mature.

i guess that's what i get for making them DO THEIR FREAKING JOBS and tell people to put their phones away.

i fangirl for Pixar. there, i said it.

in my defence, each year's movie seems to be among the best and they're pretty awesome.

so...go see Up. every one of you. seriously, i loved it and i can't wait to see it tomorrow in 3D!! XD

unfortunately, along with the movie came some disappointment...and i would put this behind a cut if i could remember how.

timeline of the guy at work:
January - guy is hired. i take interest but keep it to myself due to slight age difference. he expresses interest to another usher and she tells me. apparently, in my surprise, i made her think that i wasn't interested. never said that i wasn't
March - i ask her if he's ever brought it up again. she says they don't talk about it because i wasn't interested. i clarify that i was and she offers to take care of it.
May - still left hanging. she never told me that he wasn't interested anymore, apparently i was supposed to figure that out for myself. April, Zack, and i bumped into him at the theater tonight, where he introduced us to some girl (who was actually really nice). i assume she was his girlfriend because they were holding hands and everything.

see, i never did the dating thing in high school. i never had crushes or boyfriends or anything. it just didn't interest me. now, i feel like i've really missed out on part of being a teenager. i'm not trying to make up for it or anything, but i think at my age i should be doing it and i think having missed out on it in the past makes me want to do it even more.

i'm not all broken up about this. for a long time now i've felt like i didn't really have a chance anyway, i just wished she'd told me he wasn't interested so that i wouldn't end up with this disappointment. and really, i am disappointed. if i weren't i wouldn't be here unloading this junk on you guys.

(if you've read this far i love you so much it's ridiculous).

but at least he still talks to me at work. i'd like to be friends with him. if he's workring tomorrow, i'm afraid it will be really awkward (for me, at least. i don't know if he even knows i'm interested). meh...

anyway, on to another subject.

after the movie, April and i went to wal-mart. i was under the impression that no one was waiting up on me at home so i wasn't concerned with how late it was. after an hour (about 3 am) dad calls wanting to know where i am and saying mom had gotten up worried about me because i wasn't home, etc. after i hung up April looks at me and goes "you have a curfew?" with an unspoken at your age?

i don't, but i don't usually go out at night, either. she's declared that she's going to make me go out late more often so that they'll loosen their hold and i can actually act like a college student. she's right, of course. it's embarassing how often lately i've gotten disbelieving looks because i don't stay out late because someone's waiting for me. i appreciate that they do that, but honestly they need to loosen their hold a little. i'm twenty-two, not sixteen! this is why i hate being the baby of the family.

well...i think i'm done. i needed to get that out and i feel a bit better. i guess i should go to bed now...

i spent a good six hours today with some of my friends from work, creating characters for Shadowrun (a table-top rpg). i don't know when we're going to start actually playing, but it was a heck of a lot of fun just getting to hang out with them today. :aww:

i'm thinking about my backstory. my character is a fox who has been "awakened" and can now shapeshift between fox form and elf form. my one character flaw is that i have a dark secret so i have to have a backstory that won't give that away. i don't think anyone will guess it, anyway, it's kinda random. ^^;

i also need a name for my character. it'll probably end up being female. anyway, "Trystera" popped into my head, but i really don't know. you guys have any ideas?

i got home from that around ten to walk in on a conversation between my mom and sister in law. see, my niece recently recently broke up with her "boyfriend" because he was being mean or something. we're happy about this because he was a smart-alecky brat with no manners. seriously. apparently the other day he texted my sister in law's phone saying "i love you and i want you back." my brother was the first one to see it and, not knowing who it was, replied with a few "choice words."

this led to the kid calling repeatedly throughout the day and hanging up on them each time. eventually my sister in law got the number and called back, telling the brat's mom what he was doing. so apparently he's said something to my niece at school about him getting in trouble being her fault and she's upset, i think.

maybe it's just me, but it seems that they're a little young for all this junk. they're only ten! i'm a bit bothered by all this. at the same time, though, i wish i could've seen my brother's reaction to the first text. XD

*flops over and dies*

i'm so ready for the end of the semester. i just need to get away from everything.

so i was in the car with mom today and i was trying to call Fred's Pizza in wheelersburg, right?

somehow i accidentally called a porn hotline.

that's right, a porn hotline.

wouldn't you know it...

i'm skipping class today. shh...

also, downloading the Hana Kimi special. (best show ever! XD) it makes me quite happy. once the Absolute Boyfriend special is out, i'll get it too and put them on a dvd together. yep!

nothing much happening here.

( because i am weak... )

OOH! i watched the first episode of the new Fullmetal series tonight. FREAKIN' AMAZING! i really loved the opening/closing. i need them on my ipod...

over the last two days i've realized a few things...

- even as an adult, when i watch Harry and the Hendersons i'm reminded of my dad every time Harry smiles.
- Dance Dance Revolution is far less painful if you hold your chest still on the jumps.
- Himura Kenshin is basically an awesome hobo.
- my ISC professor likes to make us climb steep hillsides, walk half a trail, and randomly leave said trail to slide down a muddy hill and almost take a ten foot drop into a creek. JUST so he can point out how erosion is handled in a city park.
- chocolate milk and pizza rolls are the best combo ever.

yes, i has been a productive few days.

i miss photoshop. it's been forever since i've made anything.

i have a community here, that i never update and is really nothing more than an archive of the doujinshi translations i've collected. i wonder if i should use it for something else?

anyway, back to the photoshop. i've been thinking of putting my wallpapers and icons here on LJ. they're all on deviantArt and they say "sized for livejournal" so i don't know why i don't have them here. i just don't think about things like that. i might start linking my fics, too, although you guys don't read that fandom. really, i just want to have something here.

i'd like to work on the AMV i started forever ago, but my computer keeps telling me that the files don't fit when i try to play it and see what i've done so far. i hate that, because i was kind of proud of this one. anybody know if i can fix it or if i'll have to start over again?

( This might be too much info... )

so. i totally had something to talk about, but now it's gone and i can't remember why i'm here. how very "together" of me.

i've been thinking about what i want to do over spring break. then, i start thinking about what i'll actually be able to do over break. it's depressing.

- the majority of it will be that religion paper.
- and the project/presentation for ISC.
- drive up to Chillicothe and visit Nanny.
- brave the cemetery to take Pappy some flowers.
- i'd like to finish "Under the Table" as well as chapter four of my 52 flavors.
- tackle all that stuff in my original story.
- watch Fullmetal Alchemist from beginning to end.
- finish Ouran High School Host Club.
- introduce myself to D Gray Man so i'll know what's going on in the stuff i'm beta-reading.
- do that lovely Japanese homework.
- exercise every day and eat better
- play massive amounts of DDR
- see Watchmen
- something else that i've forgotten.

which ones will i do?

- drive up to Chillicothe and visit Nanny.
- brave the cemetery to take Pappy some flowers (that place creeps me out when i'm alone...)
- do that lovely Japanese homework.
- i'd like to finish "Under the Table" as well as chapter four of my 52 flavors. (if i'm lucky).
- play massive amounts of DDR (if my family will leave me alone).

a week just isn't long enough. T_T

my foot is bleeding, because these shoes are new enough to give me blisters. ow...

holy crap, i'm updating my livejournal...

anyway, i'm bored. my throat hurts which makes me feel like i'm getting sick, i just watched an episode of Ouran High School Host Club which makes me giggle, i have a new chapter to beta which makes me happy, and i have some stuff to type for which i might find a beta myself. could just ask Julie, i guess, since she's familiar with the fandom and i'm looking at her stuff anyway. i haven't decided yet.

wow...lots of stuff going on for the middle of the night.

my brother has given me a new show to watch, Children of the Stones. it's British and from the seventies, both things that i like. i may start on that now. maybe.

i still miss the right arrow key here on my laptop. i didn't realize how much i used it...

also, my feet are cold, a problem which i am solving with a blanket and Panaka. he's such a nice cat. except when he sits on me and digs his claws into my legs. that kinda hurts.

i should totally be doing my reading right now. SLACKAGE. i seem to slack at everything. i'm thinking i'll go to bed soon and work on the new chapter for Pan-Zareta/Miss Woodford. i've been beta-reading for her and i'm finding that i enjoy it. apparently, when something is fandom related i like to pick it apart and fix things. heh...

typing is awkward right now. i've got a papercut on the tip of my finger and the band-aid is making it slide on the keys so i'm trying not to use it. i've got another, fresher one on my other hand (it was big enough to bleed) so i'm having quite an annoying day finger-wise.

Inkheart comes out tomorrow. i'm not looking forward to being unable to to see it right away. i'm hoping maybe saturday.

i spent some time at hanshi_woaini's house today. while i was there i pilfered a hot pocket and watched the beginning of the Cat in the Red Boots (Ikuta Toma!!).i really loved it, and i think i like the music a bit better now that i've got some mental imagines to go with the soundtrack. ^_^

i was hoping to play some DDR when i got home, but my bro and his boy were waiting for me when i got here so i didn't, and everyone's been in the family room most of the evening. maybe next week, because i know i won't feel like it after work tomorrow.

...ramble ramble ramble...

i totally feel like crap right now, and i don't understand why. i haven't eaten much today (dinner was a can of soup and some pickles in a cup) or taken my medicine but my stomach's in an uproar.

i hope it calms down by morning...

i have a lot of love for Chico right now. she's awesome.

in other news, my feet are cold. they're going to get colder when i go outside to change Panaka's litter...

i think that's about it. i noticed on veoh today that they have The Cat Returns. i think i may watch it tonight, since i love Studio Ghibli and i haven't gotten to see that one.

let's see...i think that's about it for me.

oh, tell me what you guys want for Christmas! if you don't at least give me an idea you'll get something crappy like a gift card. actually, even if you give me an idea you might still get one of those.

i'm stealing from jusbeinkt

Six Ships I Love
1. Ed/Winry - Fullmetal Alchemist
2. Ron/Hermione - Harry Potter
3. Al/Mei-Chan - Fullmetal Alchemist
4. Zuko/Katara - Avatar
5. Nakatsu/Ashiya - Hanazakari no Kimitachi e
6. Sokka/Toph - Avatar

Three Ships I Liked, But Don't Anymore (for the sake of argument we'll say "don't like as much anymore")
7. Aang/Katara - Avatar
8. Yuki/Tohru - Furuba
9. Azmaria/Joshua - Chrno Crusade

Three Ships I Don't Like
10. Harry/Draco - Harry Potter
11. Ed/Envy - Fullmetal Alchemist
12. Kyo/Yuki - Furuba

Two Ships I Am Curious About, But Don't Actually Ship
13. Roy/Ed - Fullmetal Alchemist (i read the tamer ones sometimes, but like the parental stories better).
14. Ed/Riza - Fullmetal Alchemist

1.) Why do you dislike #11 so much?
they so obviously hate each other. it's not even that pretend hate. i mean, come on! Envy killed him at one point...

2.) Who is someone you know that ships #13?
my buddy Chibi-chan from dA and ff.net.

3.) What would be your ideal scenario for couple #3?
for Mei to be there when he's finally restored. she'd fangirl. XD

4.) Which is your favorite episode for #1? Try to pick just one.
nothing in the anime, but in the manga there's a lot of good stuff...

5.) How long have you been following couple #6?
since the second season when Toph joined the show.

6.) What's the story with #8? What made you stop liking them/caring?
I got angry at JD. He fudged up too many times.

7.) Which ship do you prefer - #2 or #4?
i like both of them, but i laugh more at Ron and Hermione.

8.) You have the power to make one ship non existent. Choose from #10 or #12.
10 (Harry/Draco). at least Yuki's girly looking enough that i can squint and pretend he's a girl.

9.) What interests you about #14?
there's a big age difference, but she'd tear him apart for doing something stupid which would eb kind of funny.

10.) When did you stop liking #7?
it became cannon. it was cute when Aang liked her and she didn't know it, but then she started leading him on and randomly changing her mind and everything. it just got to be annoying.

11.) Did your waning interest in #9 kill your interest in the show?
nope.

12.) What's a song that reminds you of #5?
"Homo janai...Homo janai..."

13.) Which of these ships do you love the most?
Ed/Winry (they're freakin' perfect for each other!)

14.) Which do you dislike the most?
Ed/Envy

15.) If you could have any of these two pairings double date, who would it be? (even better if they're from different shows)
i don't know...maybe Ed/Win and Zuko/Katara?

16.) Have #2 kissed yet? Elaborate if you'd like.
in the last book after we waited FOREVER for it.

17.) Did #4 have a happy ending? If the show hasn't ended yet, do you think a happy ending is likely?
they aren't really cannon.

18.) What would make you start shipping #13?
like i said, i'll read the fanfiction if it's really well-written, but i like them better in a father/son situation.

19.) If only one could happen, which would you prefer - #2 or #6?
2 (Ron/Her) has already happened, so let's go with Toph/Sokka! that'd be a relationship built on sarcasm...and meat...

20.) You have the power to decide the fate of #10. What happens to them?
Draco accidentally blinds himself with his wand and Harry runs away to make love to Ginny.

so mom and i were talking. apparently, if i  were living on my own in huntington so i could claim myself on my taxes, it would be easier for me to get a pell grant and therefore avoid some of the debt that i'm building up.

this sounds like a good idea to me. you know, if i were making more than $250-300 a month. not to mention the fact that moving out of here scares me to death. it might be possible if i had somebody to split rent with or whatever. and really, as old as i am i need to get out of here eventually...

i'm torn. what do you guys think?

i feel whiny. i've also been procrastinating quite a bit as of late. that's not good.

i might go carve our pumpkin out before church, since i won't have time to do it tomorrow. i want to do one with Ed's angry face. ^_^

i'm not looking forward to this weekend.  i'll be living at movies 10 and i can ony hope that it'll go by quickly.

i'm much rather be home reading or actually seeing people outside school. bweh...

wow! i'm updating my livejournal! imagine that...

i really should come by here more often. i mean, i have it and i'm basically letting it sit and rot.

but honestly, what is there to talk about besides fandom? there's really nothing significant happening in my life right now. not even any drama to whine about. i'm sort of just...here. i'm sitting around waiting for the semester to end so the next one can start and then i'll just sit around and wait for <i>that</i> one to end.

it's a very monotonous way to be. Tsubasacon will make it better, but once that's over it's right back to this.

now. i'm off to go make spaghetti. woot.